Ditapo

Reflection December 30, 2007

It’s the end of the year, again. Time sure has flown by like nobody’s business. This year, especially seems to have gone by with exceptional speed. Perhaps then, it would be time to reflect, like the image suggests, on the year past in all it’s (un)glory.

In essence, this year has sadly been nothing much short of a disappointment, though there have been some minor high points along the way. In acadamia, maybe I haven’t been trying hard enough, or too easily distracted, but there is definitely much room for improvement, especially in Econs and GP. Especially disappointing after having spent two ‘successful’ years with 4R. Writing abilities and techniques seem to have just vaporised just like the class spirit and atmosphere, though it is highly likely that they share a cause(latter) and effect relationship. Don’t really know how to fix it though, and worst come to worst, will try to sheer brute force hardwork. Chem and Maths are only going to get harder, meaning that next year should be a year of hardcore work. Should actually stick to that idea too, rather than slacking my way through, as I’m wont to, and end up setting myself up for even greater disapopintments again. Doing well for Physics was a minor high, though much more work wil be needed in the coming year to keep it up, as well as to try and grasp this H3 which I’ve committed myself to. Going for Phys O was interesting too, though should most certainly have done better, for second round and more. Still, at least it wasn’t total disappointment, as it might’ve been had I failed even selection. Should’ve tried harder for Chem O though, oh well.

On the social front is where the disappointments have been greater, on a personal level at least. A thousand new people to know, and I spectecularly fail to make proper new friends. This old malaise is really going to come and bite me in the ass one day, or maybe it already has. A couple dozen more acquaintances, but what do most of those count for? We’ve all seen how well that has worked out in the past. Definitely not to say, or course, that it has been in no way my fault, or not for want of trying. Could have done a lot more to help myself in this respect, but once again, I don’t really know what to do. I don’t know how to make small talk, or maybe it’s just that I feel uncomfortable with making conversation with the intent of moving the relationship beyond acquaintance mode, or overawed by their presence. I really don’t know. And people who I would like to get to know better, some which i have been trying to for years, don’t really seem to want to talk. So I don’t know. Really. It’s one thing to say this same (similar) thing from time to time, and another to try and fix it, and I do try, sometimes, but mostly I guess I just don’t have the guts. Regardless, it is an eventuality that somehow, someday, someway, I’m going to have to change and break this.

Away from school, and there hasn’t been much to be said. a pity that I missed Vietnam, though the attachment has been an interesting experience, for all it’s been worth. The recent trip up North has been experienceful, and at least a relaxing break, more importantly a long overdue change in scenery from the local setting. The countdown tomorrow might be nice too. Guess there really hasn’t been much int hsi respects to say, though more English reading would’ve been nice. Gotta find something/someone good to read one of these days.

Looking to the year ahead, in light of this year of disappointment, there can probably only be a few points to be said.

• Work hard
• Be Friendlier
• Work hard
• Have a more positive outlook
• Word hard.

Well then, that’s a wrap. Goodbye 2007. It’s been nice knowing you, and in spite of everything, it’s a little hard to set time behind and move on. Onwards, regardless, and a happy 2008 to me.